Playdough Master pieces

Happy Birthday Heather

Thanks Ambree for making dinner and decorating the cake. You did a GREAT job!

Dress up or treasure hunt-- Sundays are the best

Here are the girls in thier new dress up but the hit of the day was Colbys treasure hunt that he set up in the back yard. We are all anxious for summer!

Battle Los Angeles

Rob and I are not big movies attenders. It just got to be too disappointing. The movies are too much money, the seats are uncomfortable, the standards of other attenders below par, we down too much overly buttered popcorn and the movies suck. We like Comcast on demand. At home in our own little room, our own uninterrupted space, all we can eat and drink, we can move around and if we fall asleep, we can start it all over again today or tomorrow. Colby and Heather had given us a movie pass and so yesterday at work when it was suggested we see Battle Los Angeles, we went. I was not disappointed. I have been reading about WWII because of my grandpa and what I imagine was displayed on the screen. There was no nudity, no heavy duty blood scenes, no nutcase to make you feel uneasy, and they did not focus on the aliens. It was about people and the decisions they make and why. It was about being more than yourself. It was about the Marines and if you did not already love these young men and women who are out there fighting for us, after watching the movies, you will.
I do not think I have what it takes and I am not sure I ever did. I am grateful for those who choose to serve and defend our country and freedom.
Maybe in our own way, we are all fighting some type of war and their motto rings true to my heart.
Retreat- Hell!

A prayer

It is hard to sing of oneness when our world is not complete, when those who once brought wholeness to our life have gone, and naught but memory can fill the emptiness their passing leaves behind.
But memory can tell us only what we were, in company with those we loved: it cannot help us find what each of us, alone, must now become. Yet no one is really alone: those who live no more, echo still within our thoughts and words, and what they did is part of what we have become.
We do best homage to them when we live our lives most fully even in the shadow of our loss.
author unknown

I was watching Corina, Corina the other day. One of my most favorite movies of all time. I relate to the young girl who lost mother. I remember the same feelings, words, actions from when I was young. In the movie the little girl states that she wants to die. How well I remember that feeling.
Right after we bought our first home, I served in the Relief Society Presidency as second counselor. During this time, a father of 9 children was out jogging and died. I still remember visiting the wife. She was devastated and keep telling us she wanted to die. It bothered me and I went to my mother and asked her if she had felt the same way when our dad had passed away. She told me that she had never felt that way as she was all that us kids had left and she had a strong desire to live.

I have lost many loved one since my dad and many I miss terribly. But it is that feeling of loneliess that makes me still "want to die". Sometimes the emptiness is so great, so vast that I cannot get past it. I have been doing geneology and the desire is so strong to be with them again. Not only are they missed on this side of the vail but the other side of the vail is just as empty without "us" the us that we were together. I can feel their pull. I desire to be with them.

The world is so dark and I am drawn to the light again and again. I realize I am here on my own mission and will be able to return to my Father, Mother and my brother Jesus when it is completed. I am willing and able to find the path to be what I can become. It is just sometimes, I wonder................

One year ago today

One year ago today my grandmother passed away. It has been an interesting year and I have learned many new things about her. This last week my uncle gave me all her personal items. I was able to read letters from my grandmother and great grandmother and learn so many things about her life. Here is a small glimpse of her life:
My grandmother was born to Grace Evans,a single mother who had the fathers name removed from the birth certificate. My grand mothers birth certificate name is Geraldine Evans. Soon after Geraldine was born, Grace married AE Headley. From that time forward my grandmother was known as Fern Headley. Grace married to AE Headley was rocking and she left with Fern several times. AE Headley wrote beautiful love letters begging her to return and it looks like it worked. When Fern was 14 her mother died and Fern went to love with her grandmother Clara Evans. However before she could go to her grandmothers, her grandma made her change her name back to Geraldine Evans. When Geraldine lived with her grandparents she found out that her father was not dead, as she had been told all her life , but he was a live. Geraldine set out on a quest to find him and she did find him. There were a few letter between them, her father wanted to get to know her and told her that he had been divorced for years and had search for them but were never able to find Grace or Geraldine. They had only a few correspondences and then he died. Geraldine never got to meet her dad.
Soon after Geraldine become a single mom, who moved to Salt Lake. My grandmother, Jean tended Geraldine's son Greg while she worked. Within 3 years Geraldine was married to my grandpa and was a part of my life for 54 years.

Patent pending

I have gotten a new job and had to go get a drug test. This is a new experience for me and I will have to say it was NOT pleasant.
First, it is at insta care and everyone there is sick! I take in my little paper and they let me know that they only have one machine so it will be about a 50 minute wait-- in the sick room.
So I go out to my car to wait out the majority of the time, decide I have time to run to the bank and get some money and then once I have money , I decide I need a burger so I pick one up and return to read my oriental trader catalog.
I am called to the back with the rest of the sickies,, told I have to take off my jacket, leave my purse, wash my hands and then given a small cup to pee in and shown the bathroom. The nurse had no bed side mannners at all. She is not pleasant and I am not pleasant back. There is no shelf in the bathroom. I am not sure how they expect you to wipe and still keep the cup in hand. I make it out and hand her my pee cup, it is extremely humiliating and I hate it. She makes me initial the cup and electronically sign for the pee cup. Then I am free to go.
Surely this is is about as humiliating as you can get. what amazes me more is ho wthey treat you like you are guilty before you even pee.
So I have thought of the Drug testing toilet. When you can just pee on the pot and it goes into the toilet which contains the machine to test for drugs. Kind of like a one stop shop without everyone having to touch the pee cup.
I need to start to look for funding.

Lunch with an old friend

I had dinner tonight with my friend Maria. She had recently tailored Rob's new suit and I happened to mention that Rob was talking about stopping by to thank her and show her what a great job she did.
She was anxious for him to stop by and when her did, he could he bring some of those red hot poker plants from the back yard and a shovel.
I was laughing and could hardly wait to tell Rob as he is a little in debt to her for the rush job on the suit.
Then Maria remembered that her furnace filter needed to be changed too and could I send him over.
It just made me laugh!
Who know what the list will look like by the time he gets there!

Lacey the Horse

Grandma: laughing, laughing, laughing
Kyler: My mom and dad do not think it is fun. They are not laughing at all. My mom hates it.
Grandma: laughing laughing laughing
Kyler: Grandma they really are not laughing
Grandma: Does Kinley like her birthday pony?
Kyler: oh yeah she loves her so much
Grandma: do you like Kinleys birthday pony?
Kyler: oh I really love the pony too
Grandma: laughing laughing laughing
Big smile
Grandma: kyler can you pinch the ponies ear so grandma can hear it sing
Kyler : yes
Grandma: laughing laughing laughing
Yes, being a grandma is great. You can buy what ever you want. Revenge, payback or what ever you want to call is Bliss!

One year anniversary

It has been one year since the fire/ repair and we moved back into our house. I would have to say it has not been an easy one and we have not come very far. But we are finally getting back to our lives. Losing the sale of our home was not that bad and really we did not lose any personal items in the fire so that was good. Three months plus in a hotel was okay. But we were depressed and had lost all confidence in ourselves and could not find it, as we faced one trial after another. I lost my job. My grandmother passed away. There are always family issues that do not allow the heart to heal. And even though we kept our personal circles small and did not venture out much, it seems there was not much good happening around us. I got a job but neither of us were happy at work. It was one tough year. And I didn't realize how bad it was till Thanksgiving when the kids made dinner here at the house and I had no cornstarch. It was the straw the broke the camels back. We decided to pull back together.
I have a new job, Rob is looking for a job, we have made new commitments to ourselves and others. We want 2011 to be better. We want to be better and we are the only ones who can make it happen.
We lost one year of our lives. I do not know where it went but that is going to change and this year hopefully will be the one that will be unforgettable.
I thank my lord, my brother Jesus and my wonderful husband for getting me through it. Without them--- who would care and want to even go on.

Happy 3rd Birthday Kini-bell

How did you grow so big so fast???
And what a special day.
March 3 turning 3
We hope it turns out to be a lucky day for you!!!
And since all you want for your birthday is PINK
Grandma and pa got you something extra pink!!! We can hardly wait for the party!